I dropped the ball today.
In my defense, I had a very hard and stressful day at work. Two big events scheduled way too close together without consideration for the time it takes us to clean the fucking theater. I wanted to slap the shit out of the woman responsible for this, especially since it's not the first time she's done it.
The best I could do was chant "Nam Myoho Renge Kyo" in my mind while working and grocery shopping...just to keep the irritation down. Didn't help with the exhaustion though.
I will be doing prayer-meditation tonight before bed though and, as far as I'm concerned, that counts. I'll record it tomorrow.
Worth noting though: Exercises like "fixed gaze" and "motionless" are REALLY difficult when I try them for their own sake, but I am able to do this more easily and for MUCH longer periods of time when framed within intent of sacrificial meditation.
It's amazing how much of a difference the actual intent makes!!
Oh, and...the Elvish thing is out. I investigated a bit online. Apparently, Tolkien never developed Elvish enough to speak fluently and casually and therefore allow me to design a banishing in that language. I'm a little saddened by that.
Center & Circumference
- Strike One