Strike One
I dropped the ball today.

In my defense, I had a very hard and stressful day at work. Two big events scheduled way too close together without consideration for the time it takes us to clean the fucking theater. I wanted to slap the shit out of the woman responsible for this, especially since it's not the first time she's done it.

The best I could do was chant "Nam Myoho Renge Kyo" in my mind while working and grocery shopping...just to keep the irritation down. Didn't help with the exhaustion though.

I will be doing prayer-meditation tonight before bed though and, as far as I'm concerned, that counts. I'll record it tomorrow.

Worth noting though: Exercises like "fixed gaze" and "motionless" are REALLY difficult when I try them for their own sake, but I am able to do this more easily and for MUCH longer periods of time when framed within intent of sacrificial meditation.

It's amazing how much of a difference the actual intent makes!!

Oh, and...the Elvish thing is out. I investigated a bit online. Apparently, Tolkien never developed Elvish enough to speak fluently and casually and therefore allow me to design a banishing in that language. I'm a little saddened by that.

frightening comfort
Sleep is a powerful tool. Letting down the veil. Disconnecting the rational mind. Allowing images and emotions to flow freely. Monsters emerge to show unresolved issues. The horrors. The phobias. The desperation. The aching hungers. The shame and the guilt. The frustrations. We are confronted with the raw truth in the World of Morpheus.

And yet, sleep allows for time to settle. When anguish becomes exhausting, sleep allows the mind to find comfort and perhaps resolution. After a hard day's work, sleep brings satisfaction. When tired and cranky, sleep is the warm bath of serenity.

Sleep keeps the madness away.

first post

fence post

french roast

fresh piss

frost passed

forest path

poor forcast

pork fat

foot pad

fudge pack

prank fuck

prick funk

pink frock


fake porn


corn plate

play fort


fog day

frog prey


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